angry brain chatter

- not until you’re 18, when i turned 18 it was not until you finish yr 12, after that was not until you start uni, after that was not until you’ve settled into uni, after that was not if he’s living at home with his parents. He doesn’t live with his parents, he has his own place. if i ask you’re going to come up with another fucking excuse. I’m fucking old enough and responsible enough to be able to sleep at a guys house. I hate you doing this. I’m not going to fuck every guy friend i have. I’ve slept with two guys ever and i was in a relationship with both for 5 months before that. I don’t want to get into a fight with it but seriously. how can you tell me to be independent and do my own thing when you won’t trust me around boys…. i’m anything but a slut. 

- Biology assignments suck and I have too many assignments on right now

-I haven’t had a proper nights sleep in over two weeks

- I want to make him happy but I’m too scared to, I know what he wants and i’m too afraid to give it to him. My best friend got compliments from him about it and i’ve never been like that and she’s my best friend and i don’t want him comparing us 

- I need cuddles because i feel like throwing something hard at my bedroom wall

- I’ve been cheated on too many times and don’t want to run the risk of it happening again so i don’t want to be his girlfriend before he goes partying in Europe, i’ll still be here when he comes back